Today, I watched 2 other little girlies. They slept over last night and I had them all day till about 6pm. They really are such quiet little girls who were very obedient and respectful to me but I think just having 6 children is a ton of work and tiring, plus Elijah was pretty sassy and ornery today and required a bunch of discipline. So it was a rough day but verses kept popping up in my mind all day about Christ and His selfless life, serving others and never complaining about it:) I was rebuked many times today.
Tonight I got very angry with Elijah who was not being careful and spilled my drink all over me and the floor just as I was sitting down to FINALLY eat around 7pm. I lost it and yelled at him and said some not nice things. I was SO rebuked by the Spirit after it happened. I calmed down and then went and found him (he was sitting all alone crying) and apologized for my mean words and loosing my temper with him and getting so angry. I told him that what mommy did was sin and that Jesus died for that sin and that I need to remember that the next time I get angry. He was so sweet and kept kissing me and saying its okay mommy. I love you, mommy.
Praise God for forgiveness and for His showing me thru the example of a child how my sin mocks a loving God who gave of Himself for me on the cross. I am so full of pride and need to be humbled like this. Most of the time, I want life to be easy and things to go smoothly but then I so easily loose that sensitivity to the Spirit, and the joy that comes with remembering that I am but clay and that I need the fire of hard times to burn out the many imperfections and to make me more like my Creator. Praise God for a hard day and for the outpouring of His grace in causing me to remember the Gospel in the midst of my sin.